Last Night

I went out to a gala event which means I had to dress up. So last week I purchased a little black dress, black nylons and was ready for last night. Two years ago I wouldn't have even bothered to accept the invitation. I felt ugly and undesirable. But since I met my Master things have changed in that respect. I started working out, a lot. I weigh the same but my body is changing. I have a waist again! He had me kneel before my mirror one day, stripped naked and repeat "I am kajira, I am beautiful." I had a hard time with that, but He made me say it several times until He could hear I actually believed the words I was saying. I had made promises before to lose weight and exercise but I always stopped for some reason or another. It's been a year since I started exercising. I take spin classes, weight lifting and now zumba. I actually feel sexier and enjoy going out instead of hiding in my house. So last night I wore my nylons, my tiny black dress, straightened my hair yet curling the ends and did my make up. I put on the jewelry I normally keep hidden in the bank. I walked out feeling wonderful and I have my Master to thank for that. It was a beautiful night, only thing to top it would be if He were at my side. But in a way, He was, I thought of Him often.

At the end of the day, it's always us.