I entered this life January 20, 2008. I discovered it online on Second Life. I've had dramas on there before, always regarding men, well one in particular. I decided that a boyfriend type relationship just wasn't working. I had heard of Gor before but was always afraid to enter. I heard they'd kill those they didn't like and enslaves the girls they did. Well, that day in January, I was with some old friends in sl; ones I trusted with my secrets; I told them everything. Apparently they didnt do the same. They told me of a secret they had kept from me for about 2 years. I was still raw from my break up so I felt betrayed. I ran to a friend and told him to take me somewhere; anywhere; so I could leave all the liers behind me. He smiled and said, I'm taking you to Gor. I was scared but excited. I got some light blue silks with a butterfly clasp in the front. I went with him and we went from city to city. My fear was giving way to boredom because nobody was on. He had to log and I told him I'd stay a bit. He didn't like that. He made me promise I'd stay on the hillside we were at. I promised. He logged and I did stay, for a bit. I couldn't help it, I wanted to find someone to interact with. I wanted to role play to see what it was like. I wasn't being honest with myself, I wanted to be collared but I didn't know it; or even the term. I wandered around and ended up in Port Kar.
It is there that my life changed, for the better. I saw him, standing there talking to another slave. I got so nervous, I just walked by them. I did that a few times and then sat down in one of the buildings looking around; thinking what else I should do; or where I should go. How could I be a slave girl if I was too nervous to talk to people in Gor? I then noticed He was there. We started talking (or typing as the case may be) but I wasn't sure I was doing it right. I called him Sir. He said I was dressed as a kajira, yet I didn't know what that word meant. He could tell by my demenor, by my questions what I wanted. Then He asked me "you know what you want, even if you won't admit it." I said "I know what I want, I never denied it." He liked that. So, for the first time in my life I became brave and asked "Can I be your slave girl." He really liked that. I must clarify that before I met him; I had gone wandering alone and found other men in Gor but they scared me. They seemed brutal. This one, was intelligent, He spoke very well, He was a warrior and I feared Him but I still wanted Him. I wanted to kneel for Him. I never got that feeling before, never. I just had this overwhelming feeling to please Him. He collared me that night and it was the most erotic experience of my life. I felt every part of me was alive. My heart was racing, my hands were shaking. I was nervous, excited and so very turned on. He had me kneel and I did and it's been the happiest place for me.
I have been with him since that date. We have had issues, mainly from me. He is a Master in rl and has been for many years. His rl wife is also His kajira. We have not met yet, but we do speak everyday and I am His now in rl as well. Our connection went beyond role play. I do His bidding in this life. If my rl were less an issue; I'd hve flown there by now and knelt for Him. I am His and ready to one day take my place at His boot.
At the end of the day, it is always us
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